I have a confession. I have a Super Cooper addiction. I am the kind of who mom misses her kid when he goes down for bed for the night because it is a really long time and sometimes I just want to play with him. How am I supposed to leave him for two full nights?!
Now, I am not trying to sound holier than thou. Let us be clear – I am a mom who cherishes naptime. I can clean, sleep, watch Bravo TV, and even throw back a diet Coke without little fingers in my glass. I NEED nap time.
In a single day there are only so many times I can stand having Cooper chase me around with the remote going “LA-LA?! LA-LA?!” (Elmo) before I feel like throwing that remote into the garbage disposal. If by chance Sesame Street is even on and even if Elmo happens to be in the scene, if he is not singing “Elmo’s Song” at the given moment it is completely unacceptable. And the “La-La?!” will continue, FOREVER. But with just a short two hour nap we both (mostly me) are happy and recharged to face the Elmo monster.
Since, I am a teacher I work full time during the school year. I first dealt with separation anxiety when I put Cooper in daycare after my maternity leave was over. While it was hard at first to leave him in the care of others, I am really happy with it and I know he gets the social interaction and “sibling” experience he needs and deserves. Plus, I get to pick him up at 3:30 every day and give him a great big hug! I know he is happy and safe and now I think even if I did stay at home full time with him, I would want put him in daycare twice a week to help build up his social skills, since he is an only child and building up his immune system doesn’t hurt either.
However, even though I am over the daycare hurdle, I find I have a new fear to face. I am going to be leaving Cooper for two nights this weekend to travel to NYC for the Great Urban Race. I am so excited for the race, but it will be only the second time I have ever left him overnight. This is also the first time I have left him for two nights in a row and the first time Brian will be in charge for longer than like 6 hours. I am nervous.
Brian is a great Dad, but he is not me. What is that you say? Eww, this girl thinks she is awesome? She think she is the best mom ever? Yes, I do. If I don’t who will, well clearly besides Cooper, I read it in his diary? Is it true? No, I’m sure it isn’t, but isn’t everyone entitled to tell themselves white lies to make them feel good once in a while? I think every mother should think they are the best moms! They work hard for it!
What I like to believe Cooper feels like when I leave him:
How he really feels when I leave him:
Oh well. But seriously, it is not that I do not trust others with him, it is the nagging feeling of “what if”. What if he needs me? What if he chokes or falls down the stairs? What if someone lets him watch TV, on top of the counter, next to the knives while I am not there?
These are things that a crazy person like me OBSESS about. I would NEVER allow Cooper on that counter and I almost choked to death at the gym when I got this text. However, I am sure more balanced people realize that 99 percent of the things I obsess about are over the top. Some may even say taking a picture like this is just funny and cute, completely harmless. (Aka Brian in defense). I am skeptical. Now, why is she even going you ask?
- I think every mom or parent should do something fun for themselves once in awhile
- Moms should have friends too
- I really REALLY want to add some new bling to my 2012 medal collection. (You have to be top 25 to medal)
- I really do trust Brian…mostly
So how am I going to cope?
- Keep a positive attitude (he will be fine…he will be fine)
- Not feel guilty! Everyone needs a little me time!
- Realize maybe I am not that more awesome than everyone else (I say that ONLY for the benefit of others..)
- Facetime with the Super Cooper (he loves to watch himself in the corner)
- If all else fails call incessantly and demand continuous photos to ensure safety
- Pray every night I don’t come home to this
Question: How do you feel about leaving your little one? How do you cope?